Typically I like to be very transparent and specific when discussing achievements and disappointment, I feel like it makes me a better online blogger and friend. So today, bare with me as I can not give a ton of specifics but wanted to share a bit deeper into what exactly is going on with my family right now, and some of the incredible lessons we've learned. We've been in the midst of several different trials of faith lately, and while the outcome isn't exactly 'known' yet, the lessons I've learned are worth being documented: no matter the outcome.
For the last year I've been learning the overwhelming (and difficult) principal of patients, and being faithful as to the Lord's timing. Not just 'hoping' that the Lord will fulfill the personal revelation I've received but KNOWING that within HIS time frame he will bring to pass all that we've be prompted to do. *I know this is cryptic bare with me*.
Trusting personal revelation and God's will. Knowing that the things I've felt prompted to do (and not do) has a purpose, and that it aligns directly with the things my Heavenly Father has planned for me and my young family.
During this time we've learned and lived the principal of hard work. I feel like when we work hard (not just manual labor hard work) we physically dedicate our hearts to the 'what' we are doing. Like for the last few years I've been in school for photography. Monday-Thursdays I left my babies to work my butt off at school, but it dedicated my heart to my craft. The days were long and the nights even longer, but I truly felt boosted during it because my heart was dedicated to what I was doing through hard work.
If you've known me for longer than 5 mins., you might not equate a quality of mine as humble. But throughout the last year I've had to learn humility. To be humble in my dreams and aspirations, my accomplishments, my thoughts, speech, my actions. I haven't always been successful at it, but I've for sure gained a testimony of the principal of humility. The hardest has been to be humble with my spouse. We've both had to allow the other persons goals and needs to take priority, my husband is much better at this than I am. But his constant selfless nature has been a guide post and example to me in learning Humility.
In a few weeks I hope to be able to write a more detailed explanation, but for now I want to be able to look back, again no matter what the next few weeks hold for us, and remember all the eternal lessons I've learned, and still be grateful. I don't worry, I feel peace, which is a strange thing, but I am trusting in the personal revelation Kyle and I have received, and the incredible work that everyone involved has done.... Our lives are about to change a lot, and we're facing two outcomes, and at the end of the day we've done all we can do. So we wait, and trust, and have faith.